[ 1000 mysteries ]

[1000 Mysteries]

______my muse______

I Dare You
Shinedown

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again

nnb ready to stop yet?

fcukd up
half fcuk

my life the sine curve.

everytime
just when i thought
kann!
jus gimme a 'lil something to hang on to?

da pai
sian
fcuk

even in madness... (i'm starting to doubt so)
thoughts unclear u can never hide

ahh screww.
my bad?

but sorry no.
u'd have to kill me to stop me.

i dare you to.
fcuk.

[a thousand mysteries]01:00

Wednesday, November 29, 2006

i never really thought i'd write about this again
not this soon anw
or even to resuscitate this blog
but anw
now that's its here to serve my purpose...

its funny in honesty
how when i just re-read tt september entry
i feel almost as if it were today
maybe not exactly
but in essence

not a case of self-doubt no
in fact i dun worry much bout meself
i'm more than capable of getting up all on my own
without others to pick me up
the diff is though
it sure is a lot better when i dun do all this myself
when ppl might or could actually care enough
but no i'm not asking for more
i can't be more thankful really for all this now and what had been
its just a thought i tink i'm no less than entitled to muse and entertain

i understand it all la
it just kinda grinds on me sometimes these things happen
and wat timing too

i should have known la
it can't be all sugar spice everything nice
not as if i hadn't been forewarned
i was even just pondering abt it the other day!
so much from learn from the past?

but anw
its just one of those things
forgiven and perhaps sometime to be forgotten
God just tell me i'm doing alright

on a separate note,
as i'd always asserted
watever the situation
i look inwards first
and tt time really i had nothing of note tt i thought i had done too wrongly
so nothing doing?!
but everything happens for a reason right?
i can stomach tt sure
i jus cna't help but peeringly glance at
the could haves or might have beens
no matter now anw

when will my time come?
will u answer me?
pLs?

[a thousand mysteries]01:14

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

i got my life back.

tell me quando quando quando.

[a thousand mysteries]12:23

Thursday, September 07, 2006

am i really expecting too much/

i have no qualms about giving my all for whatever i believe in, but sometimes the tricky part comes when those things don't seem to be quite what i expected out of them.

i really treasure the friendships tt i've made. i guess part of this attitude comes from my heritage, and i cannot be more proud of that. part of it also comes from my own personality. tt's just how i am. i fully commit myself with these wonderful people i've come across, but sometimes that is a double-edged sword which somewhat baffles me.

is that really all you think of me after all this time/
either i have very poor judgement, or am naive, or just plain wrong.

i do all within my means and reasoning for these guys, and yet sometimes tt fails me.
somehow there always seem to be some catch somewhere.

maybe people still don't know me
people still aren't understanding what this person is all about
i still can't figure out how to deal with all these

somehow i feel after all i have to offer i dun seem to be satisfied
because how come no one does that to me

i think i've done it all
and yes we may be 'tight' and all
but when u ask yourself the qn
whether u have been there for me
when i was most vulnerable
when i needed someone just to be there
when i am around
can u truly answer me and say yes?

i hope i'm not thinking too highly of myself
but i really ain't got no love coming to me

hopefully its just the case of me looking at all the wrong places

hopefully.

[a thousand mysteries]18:54

Thursday, July 20, 2006

this is my space...

wtf mustafa.

haha

stay away i know silat

of saudis, 4 wives, ninjas, kung-fu and pratay

-world peace!

[a thousand mysteries]17:20